yes, i know it sounds strange after all of the drama of the past couple of months. but i am feeling strong again and that is a gift. i am finally looking forward to the future-even if it doesn't include m. i have some amazing friends. i'm so lucky. m. called me this week and i haven't called him back yet. not feeling like having a conversation ( Read more... )

hi all ( Read more... )

i've gotten a couple of calls from friends asking how i am. here it is in a nutshell: the 3 moods are sad, angry and dissapointed. they change daily. friday i was sad, today i'm back to angry. luckily, i have now eliminated confused from the roster. however, i anticipate adding it in the near future. bitter will be shunned from the emotional ( Read more... )

i can honestly say that i am completely perplexed at the moment. i think m. and i are...doomed. i would like to believe otherwise, because i have so much faith in my capacity to love him. he's just so full of fear about opening up his heart. we were up until 4:00am talking about all of this and i woke up at 7:00am to start my day ( Read more... )

The following is a re-post from my friend and co-worker Sean. It definitely helps to put things in perspective ( Read more... )

where to begin? i am feeling better (at least physically) since yesterday's bout of whatever that was. i slept ALL day. my stomach doesn't hurt quite as badly today ( Read more... )

RE-Post from Allison A ( Read more... )

okay...i feel better. i have no idea what did it..i just realized that i need to chill out a little. i suffer from wanting too much ALL THE TIME. must.be.patient.
hope everyone is doing okay at this moment.
xo,
c

i don't know what's going on with me. i have been feeling so unsettled lately. just all gloom and doom since i got back from the 4th of july weekend. so far i've been keeping it to myself mostly, but i don't know what it is or what it means. i know that m. has picked up on it, but we haven't talked about it yet. is it just me? i'm a little nervous ( Read more... )

a friend of mine posted this and i thought i'd pass it on ( Read more... )