i want to help Joey...

~Sara

It's been a while since I've updated on here. I figure, while I have a chance I should do so. Life is complicated at the moment. The boy is being difficult. I came out. I don't want to be out. I feel sick. I hope we're not pregnant again. Probably not. I hate comming out mostly in anger. It is so quick to burn but lasts a while.

It has been an interesting day. Well, an interesting couple of days at least. Our new roommate, Sean, has decided that he likes talking to me about the problems Jessie is having. And he even prefers me to be out and about when there is some difficulty.

Ok...so I'm sitting here trying to find something interesting on TV and this guy keeps on trying to talk to me on Jessie's IM. I don't know if he knows about me so I'm trying to pretend to be her but he is so fucking annoying. I mean, the guy keeps on asking questions about sex and if I've had sex and whatnot. Fucking idiot. Probably some perv ( Read more... )

I feel as if I can't connect with anyone. I've considered going around the internet to find others my own age. Only problem is I can't. How would I hang out with them? I'm a 16 year old trapped in a 27 year old's body. I have a husband and two children. Granted, I don't think of him as my husband or my kids. But, still, I feel as if I can't ( Read more... )

i dont no what to rite. cara told me abot this jurnal. i feel werd riting abot this. i am just so sad and i no that i shuld talk to that lady person. but i dont want to. i am scard. can i go home now? i found our bear. i just want to cry. there is none to talk to here. the other kids are sleepin. i dont no what to rite so i am going to ( Read more... )

The child is watching some show...The Brave Little Toaster. There's one part of it where all the characters are in a junkyard and the junk are all singing this song, "worthless" and it is so depressing.

The woman just brought her kid up here to appologize. But, instead he screamed and cried. I tried to tell her to nevermind and to please bring him back downstairs. But, she was insistent. I really don't want his applogy. He doesn't truly mean it so I don't want it. Why can't she see that. I was trying to calm myself and to get the baby to go ( Read more... )

I just wish that little shit will leave. I want him out of here now! He has pissed me off so much I can't stand it. I had to go upstairs to keep from just bashing his face in. I know, I shouldn't say such things. ooooh...it might offend someone. So fucking what. I hate walking on eggshells. He's a spoiled little shit and a week is too long ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish the boy would just shut up. I wish I could somehow silence him. He screams and screams and usually for no reason at all. Or he'll act like someone is tearing his head off when all that happened was he wasn't getting his way with a toy. It drives me insane. i can't do anything about it because if I do then I'll have to go away ( Read more... )