Orion totally embarassed Jessica today at the 4-H meeting so what happens I come out in the car. Oh joy. I fucking hate having to deal with the little brat. Oh well. Such is life I guess.

I can't stand them. They're all pussies in my book. Just assholes waiting to be fucking kicked down and beaten ( Read more... )

I'm trying to write this before I go insane from these kids. Jessica will be out soon, but before she does I want to write about last night.

( A little personal... )

I really don't know what to think right now. I'm a bit blended with Jessie atm and I'm not sure if I'm Jessie, if I'm Cara, or what. How should I think of myself. Should I be writing this here or in amethystrseNo, I'm Cara with a little bit of Jessie added in. I think that's the best way to put it...only because I feel more dominant than she does at the ( Read more... )

me again. cara is helping me write. usually cara or tanya helps me to write because i'm not very good at it yet. i just wanted to say that joey came out and talked to the nice lady today. he sat under the table while he talked to her. isn't that funny ( Read more... )

Feeling very odd. Sara was just out for a little while I helped her write a reply in a community for littles. Then Orion asked us something and I had to take full control. Now I'm feeling...odd. Not quite me but not quite Sara. Nor do I feel like Jessie or anyone else. I feel...disconnected.

~Cara

I really hate it when Orion triggers me. I get so angry with him so quickly. I need to find a way to cool my anger.

I don't like men. Hate them for the most part in fact (though our body's husband isn't too bad). I'm not really into women either. I'm a bit of a dyke but don't want to make love to women. I don't want to make love to anyone. I don't want a relationship but I do want friends. Everything I find on dykes here on LJ is all about having ( Read more... )

We're switching lately like there's no tomorrow. Back and forth. jessie just doesn't want to deal all of the sudden. I think it's the memory. Even though she's OK with remembering she really doesn't want to know. Add to that the depression and you have a recipe for absent Jessie. *sigh*

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