it has been a very long time since i've been here.

and a lot has changed.

im not really sure what i want to say...

livejournal....woot.

yeah. its been a while. myspace is the place to be.

bring it back people.

and she layed there. cold, and im cold and im confused and im yelling. how do you wake up life...how do you detach yourself away...how do you not attach to anything. you know its over when your eyes are black and you cant even hold up your head anymore. and i cant hold my head up anymore. she was just a piece of me drifting further and further and ( Read more... )

so here i am in ohio...

its crazy. but its so new. and even though i still dont know if i hate it or not half the time, i feel more secure with myself than i have in a long time.

and it feels goodim different here...or maybe its the people and the attitudes that make me react differently...i dont know. i miss that girl from florida. i miss home ( Read more... )

yeah. so im in Ohio now. woot.

i auditioned today for shakespears "much ado about nothing" and i got the part i wanted...the part of hero. my friend adam was auditioning as well, and got the part of don pedro, which im very happy about. i cant wait. its been far too long since i last lived--really lived--on stage. on the not so bright side...that means i have to wait another 6 ( Read more... )

things are never what they seem. of course i dont need to tell anyone that. its the textbook "story of your life" sort of thing. im just in a funk and im in a huge need of rejuvenation. clean off my whole face....my emotions....my head. im really craving a good meditation hour. down by the water. people are losing me. im losing people. im losing ( Read more... )

is it weird that the highlight of my christmas was this? :

me, sitting in the backseat of my car outside my mothers boyfriends house, drinking a glass of wine, smoking a cigarette, and listening to paul simon. so so peaceful and wonderful.

so how pathetic is that?

figuring out what to get people for christmas is hard enough as it is, without having to do the mall scene, with disgustingly bitter people that will steal your sweater if they think their cousin would like it. i bet if you took a good long look, you wouldnt find one single person smiling ( Read more... )

living in the wilderness for the holidays. im still trying to convince myself, but i need this. its been over a year since ive attempted to survive in this area of the west coast. its not the people, or the atomosphere, or the lifestyles that are challenging. or maybe thats exactly what makes it difficult. but for the first time in 5 months...it is ( Read more... )