Count them. Complete the scars. Turn it all in as there is nothing here for you. There is never any peace when pain burns so bright it outshines the sun. My skull splits with the pain, as wide as the separation between us itself. Any time before this I would been incapable of knowing such hurt existed, in this word or the next. The cruelty ( Read more... )

A storm to drive a would-be soul wild, with pain, grief and as much desire as lust itself ( Read more... )

I want to cry.. I want to die... I want to curl up someplace and wish my body into the non existence my minds has been sent away too. I just wrote a small note to my ex girlfriend. Now and then people come up to me telling me she's been asking after me. Since it was clear she didn't wish to consort with me after I got back in town around mother' ( Read more... )

Sparks of glee enter my shattered soul like tiny kernels of Christmas wonder. I'm taken back to a place where my heart was born. The smell of autumn with the creek near and the musk of deer and hay. The peace of the dark nights filled with stars, soft breezes and softer caresses. The serenade of crickets, and the calls of the coyotes that made ( Read more... )

So this is forever.. this is what my life has become and how my life is destined to be without you. It's cold and lonely.. and despite how you keep away and hold your breath I still see your memory flooding everything. There are things that cannot be erased.. not by time nor pain nor recovery. Break a bone and years later the evidence is still ( Read more... )

Am so glad it's raining.. I love rainy days. It brings back memories of how we use to lay in bed with the spray from the windows slweeping over us, and those tangled afternoons in bed as the gray clouds drifted past the windows. Now I am reminded of the times we watched the moon rise through the trees and how I was so touched by all the love and ( Read more... )

I need another word for 'venting' so I can just slap that in the title... I felt like writing.. tho I can barely feel a thing. I cried after I asked my kin 'does it make sense to say there are questions rolling inside me that have no words to be voiced by?' and she said yes. *sighs* It still stings like never before.. and tonight I feel sick in ( Read more... )

Vent writing.. trying to keep it together tonight.. there is no strength in me to do any thing else but desperately wish for company ( Read more... )

You were every dream come true and more. You spoke my name at night as though it were a softly spoken prayer, you only had to look at me with those warm eyes of yours and I would sink to my knees. Everything was beautiful and new.. and old things were to be sweetly treasured. Ours was a relationship that felt to expand across the ages.. there ( Read more... )

Am starting to think of 'RedSorrow' as my writing muse.. at any rate while talking to Saffron this eve he stirred up my writing muse ( Read more... )