[voice post, semi-private]

[cardsstarsdice]

[There is the sound of a man crying. It continues for a second or two, followed by a sniff and a small cough. Unsteadily, the voice begins to speak in a choked manner.]
Th-th-the tests...they came b-back...
[Another small round of crying begins, but he quickly composes himself enough to speak.]
I...I can't...
I can't...
[With a small sound that could

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[Voice Reply]

[strahlflyer]

Luxord? You alright? What's going on?

I've been busy with my various therapies, so I'm sorry it's taken so long...

Come on, my friend. What's the matter?

Re: [Voice Reply]

[cardsstarsdice]

[sniff] No, I'm not all right, Bal. All of my hopes--our hopes--for the future have been dashed into a million pieces and thrown to the wind.
[sniff]
Let a poor old sod grieve for those who will never be, won't you?

[Voice Reply]

[strahlflyer]

Luxord, dodging around the answer to the question of a friend does very little to let said friend into your circle to be there for you and comfort you.

You're just lucky I can read subtext. That and, no matter how hard you tried to be insular, you always failed.

[sighs]

But damn, Luxord... why didn't you call me straight away? After all we've been through together, all you've done for me...

You know where I am, my friend. I'm not going anywhere. You come to me and we'll sit and talk and do whatever you want...

I'm so sorry... so sorry.

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[cardsstarsdice]

I always was the failure between the two of us, wasn't I?

I...I wanted to be away from everyone, I suppose. I haven't seen Vaan at all, and Aeris is staying with me for the time being.
How could she stay with somebody like me, Bal? I truly have nothing to offer her now. No job, no house, no money, no...[sniff]

Don't be sorry. There's nothing any of us can do about this. I just need to accept that this is the hand that's been dealt to me, and I have to live with it.

[Voice Mail Reply]

[notabunneh]

Luxord...

You know where we are if you ever need anything... I-I don't know what's wrong, but you know those that love you are always going to be by your side

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[cardsstarsdice]

Oh, Miss Fran...[sniff] d-don't worry about me. It's n-n-not contag-g-gious.
[sniff]
I just need t-time...th-th-that's all...
[sob]
I need t-t-t-to [sniff] come to terms with this...

-voice transmission-

[blue_eyed_pup]

H-hey. You're Aeriths boyfriend right?

Don't tell me you just got a test for aids and they said it was positive, cuz if you give anything tommph- [you hear someone talking in the background and his voice muffled a moment]

Oh right...

Look, I don't know what's going on, but I hope it will be okay...I guess?

What did you get a test for anyway?

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[cardsstarsdice]

Yes, that's m-me.
It's not like that...I got it f-from my father, th-th-there's nothing I can do about it...[sob]

[in a whisper]I...I'm infertile. [sniff] Please, don't tell anyone.

Re: -voice transmission-

[blue_eyed_pup]

You got what from- Oh.

Hey uhm. I'm sorry man, I thought it was something that... Geeze. D:

If you want another guy to talk to, I'll come over. I don't know you well, but if you're important to Aerith you can't be that bad of a guy.

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[cardsstarsdice]

No. I'm clean in that regard. I had the tests for diseases done six months back, and I haven't...been with anyone since.

Thank you, but I just need some time first. I owe you a better introduction, since we did start off on the wrong foot.

[Voice Reply]

[sandinthecity]

Luxord? What the hell happened, man? And don't you dare pull that 'I dunno you well, I'm not gonna bother you with my problems' shit. You gotta tell me, I'm about to go crazy with everything that's happening with my friends.

Seriously, it's breaking my heart to hear you like this. Don't... oh god, don't tell me you have cancer or something...

...you'd better fucking answer. And if it sounds like I'm mad, I'm not, I'm just really worried.

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[cardsstarsdice]

"Everything that's happening?" What's going on, Vaan?

No, I don't have cancer, or anything like that...
I'm infertile. I can't have children.

I'm starting to get over it and accept reality. I must say, you missed all of the waterworks. But, I'm doing much better than I was yesterday, that's for certain. Thank you for your concern, though.