If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

Wow. I totally lost it today on the phone with Mike. I guess it is the distance that kills me. I just don't feel like I'm even a part of his life most the time. I'm the last to know what's going on. Sometimes days later. It scares me how much I need him, and how little he seems to need me. I guess I'm not there to know for sure though. Like, with ( Read more... )

It's friday and guess where I'm not? With Mike. Yep. I'm not with him. Week three and things are going down hill again. I'm so scared. I'm not going to be able to see him at all this weekend and its going to kill me. I only get to see him once a week as it is. And now this. I hate it so much. I need my fucking license.

Trena went crazy and Mike left. He is refusing to go back to his house until she leaves. I feel so bad for him. She is threatening to send him to rehab. If anything she is the one that needs to go. He got in a huge fight with her today, and his uncle doesn't seem to be doing anything about it. I hope he's alright. His phone died so I only talked to ( Read more... )

Today was the last day Shane would come to see me because the debate team got cut. :(

I miss Mike. I've talked to him for about twenty minutes today. And for us, that is nothing. I miss him so much. I hate only seeing him once a week. I have to get my license. It kills me not seeing him. I just want to hug him, see him, anything. I just hope we can make it to when I can drive. God damn. I sit here and read this and I wonder to ( Read more... )

I feel so alone. It's like I want someone to be there for me, but when I look around I'm standing on this empty road and there is no one within miles of reach. In all direction I look I can see the people I love most floating off into the distance. I know Heather and Becca would be there for me no matter what, but between Heather being grounded all ( Read more... )

I've been in a weird mood today. I don't really know how to explain it, or if anything is even really wrong. I just know that something has made me uneasy and I can't really put my finger on it. Feels like something is about to happen. I don't know if it will be good or bad. I don't know if it is really anything at all. Sometimes I think I make ( Read more... )

I got back from Mike's yesterday. It was alright. We went to the movies Friday night with Trena. her daughter, Justin and her friend. Then Mike and I just hung out in his room. Scott is out of town, so none of his friends came over or anything. It was nice. Right before I had to leave though I started crying. It is seriously so hard having to leave ( Read more... )

People often ask me how I feel, or “why him?” The answer never comes easy to me though. My first thought is always to say, “I love him.” But those words have seemed to lose their meaning among today’s population. Compliments such as “You’re beautiful” followed by “I love you” are more often than not only used to lure you into bed. Usually you’re ( Read more... )