I'm just sitting at Mikeys... being ignored. Woot woot. He's watching tv, looking at a magazine, who knows. I'm too lazy to turn around and look. We went to the beach today. It was nice... even if Mike did fall asleep. lol...

I'm really starting to hate this. Every part of it. I'm sick of feeling ugly... okay, well, I've always felt ugly. Last night I was looking in the mirror, and I felt like the ugliest person in the world. My face, ugh. For a minute I wanted to just break the mirror. Tears streaming down my face, I got so mad. Why can't I just have one good trait? ( Read more... )

siLEnceDNoTHinG (6:52:05 PM): well i hope ur fucking happy, our group of friends was perfect untill u came into it with you legs wide open ( Read more... )

I thought this summer was going to be okay.. but you know what? It's not. It sucks. It's never going to get better.

DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA. I hate it. What the hell is Ashley's problem?? God damn. Let things die already. Now she wants to kick my ass. First off, she'd have to find me, and she's not smart enough to. Secondly, if I got in a fight with her, I'd kill her. She's so dumb sometimes. Mike went off on her today. He was so mean. I feel bad. Not as much for her ( Read more... )

This has got to be one of the worst days of my life. Everyone went crazy on me... and I dont even know why this time. I guess Mike said he didnt want Jessica over at his house and everyone freaked on me. I dont know who to believe. I think when it comes down to it, Scott is the one saying the closest thing to the truth. According to him Mike said " ( Read more... )

Mike is acting weird today. I don't know. He's acting like the "Old Mike" I'm not saying that its a bad thing... it just worries me. Yesterday I said something about how he never shows he cares, and that he used to. I know, I know... he's changed, he's just not like that any more. But then today, he was being all nice and sweet about everything... ( Read more... )

Ugh. Mike hung out with Jessica Friday. We were supposed to hang out and instead he’s with his ex that he cheated on me with. How the hell am I supposed to react to that? Not only that, but he smoked too. He broke the deal, then flat out lied to me about it. I asked him what he did. I asked him who was there. All lies. What do I do? I don’t want ( Read more... )

Ugh. This is really starting to get to me. "This" ...Hell, everything is. You know.. I could be dead and it would be days before Mike even knew it? Well damn, isnt that comforting. I'm failing out of high school. I'm one of the smartest people in that institution, and I'm flunking. I do great on the tests, its just the damn homework. Sorry, but I ( Read more... )

I hate this. I see him once a fucking week. But oh no, of course it gets worse. Now he doesn't even have his damn phone. I hope his uncle gets hit my a bus! I'm going crazy without him. I miss him so much. We always get to say goodnight to eachother. But not last night. I hate it so much, I always get the worst feeling when something like this ( Read more... )