i couldnt even remember my user name or anything... i just wanted to get some stuff down, i think it might help me get on with my day ( Read more... )

so i got a job... i've been putting in applications everywhere and the only place i've heard back from is michael ( Read more... )

i kissed david on the head tonight while he was asleep and he smiled. i know its still only gas but it made so many feelings well up inside me.
being a mommie is amazing. life is different and 8 weeks later, i still havent figured out how to fit everything in a day but i have faith that it will come.

... it's all a little hard to wrap my mind around. thinking about being responsable for another life but still try to be true to myself and my life goals. i come from a long line of young moms that either forget their dreams in order to give there kids a good life (my sister) or be completely self fufilling dispite having young children that rely ( Read more... )

so i'm 11 weeks along and honestly its still not real to me yet... i'm trying to do everything right, like eating right and drinking lots of water, taking vitamins and getting rest. what i know i should really be doing is still exercising... i'm really not stoked about gaining baby weight on top of my staggeringly horrable current weight ( Read more... )

i know this absence isn't perminant. i'm treasuring these times even though i still feel your presence in the form of longing for what is missing... i still have to hear your name but i don't see your face ( Read more... )

so yeah, i stole that line from noelle, who stole it from the sleeping ( Read more... )

... and i just have to grin and bare it ( Read more... )

i don't know how but it needs to be done. i just wish it were a part of me that i could identify and cut out, because i would. i do trust jay... he's amazing to me. i've never felt so loved, so relied on. it makes me feel amazing... but by the same token i've never felt so vulnerable ( Read more... )

last week the manager at victoria asked if i could go on a trip to ny for something job related... well i find out that that trip has been cancled so i'm only working two days next week at my min. wage mall job. wow, i really don't know what i'm going to do... one week i'm working 54 hours, two weeks later i'm working 12. i'm so much more than ( Read more... )