so i keep returning to something that is dead. it has been dead for the past 9 months. i think i am afraid of everyone here. i think i am going crazy. i think i just want to go back to disney land.

ahhh.

good party last night.

sam those were some good noodles. you can get sick at my house anytime.

i still miss someone.

i just want to be thirty and have a stationwagon and two kids and a dog named after something cute but dignified.

so i was throwing something away today and a piece of card board bit me. like inch long kind of deep bite from a sturdy piece of friggin card board. It was the most blood I had seen since watching dead alive.

i want some applesauce damnit.

FIVE YEARS AGO I WAS: hmm....14 almost 15, a freshman, i had dyed half my hair with pink koolaide, wore korn t-shirts, never bought a korn cd, had a ball chain, um, tried out for cheerleading. ha ( Read more... )

so its 6:50 in the friggin morning and im at work. we just got back from phoenix last night. had an awesome awesome time. i got an easel and some canvas and paints and whatnot. oh and the soundtrack to grey's anatomy! you all need to watch that show i promise you it is friggin genius! well i got to go work i guess. have a great day everybody.

I am going to compare you to wax fruit:

With as good as it looks

And hungry as i am,

Each bite gives the illusion

That I am achieving fullfillment

So I continue

Until it is completely gone

And I am writhing on the floor

Hands on my stomache,

Wondering where my guts went.

you know that thing you do where you get in a mood and you taylor almost every song to a point where it says something about you and your situations? i must be the secret inspiration to all the musicians in the world because i swear they are talking about me.

and karin and i were served a real margarita at a mexican restaraunt the other night! and then we watched Brokeback mountain. WATCH THAT MOVIE. no matter who you are or what you believe just watch that movie if only for the sake of seeing an extremely good film.

alright, it is good to be home. i think i am desperately in love with arizona. seriously, just dont know what its about. the trip was spectacular though. caught a crazy drawing man on film, and sat in a car for 18 hours while karin drove a stick shift. karin you are AMAZING. it rained in san fransisco, snowed in boise, is kind of hot again in ( Read more... )