its been over 3 months and ive barely improved. why am i still so in love with such an asshole? hes so willing to give up what an amazing bond even as friends we had for her. for nothing. i know after all the fucked up shit he put me through and all the mean, unnecessary things he told me to put me down hes going to realize shes not right for him ( Read more... )

I felt like we would never end. Now he is done and bored with me and im left in the dust. Its been a month since the breakup and i have never felt so used and humiliated. i gave in to the temptation numerous times and now im just even more hurt. Especially since he has moved on to another girl. its been a month!! holy fuck. i guess each week gets ( Read more... )

1 year of everything i could have imagined for. mm it feels soo good.

first we went to the arcade like 5th graders and tore shit up.
then hibachi...
then a drive- in movie. it was fucking cool as hell.

oh and i hate school.
and im so excited for christmas.

annnddd... i have no friends. which fucking sucks. why do people always have to change

you know how your used to going to bed at like 2 or 3 in the morning... and when the first day of school rolls around your just sittin up doin nothing because you cant fuckin sleep? ya. this entry was 100% pointless.

i dont know what to do. i am madly in love with someone who controls my life and treats me how i dont deserve to be treated.

ahh i guess i will just add to the many entries about prom. yes it was amazing. pretty much everything went right. the biggest downer was probably the dj. i really wasnt feeling his style. but whatev. of course after was amazing too. 3 bedroom suite with close friends and david. mmm it was nice. everyone looked pretty. very bright dresses. hope ( Read more... )

Mmmmm. I'm just as in love as i was 5 months ago... and it feels amazing.

There are 10 pistols sitting in front of you, one which is loaded. Someone offers you 1 million dollars to pick one up, point it at your forehead, and pull the trigger. Would you do it?

my grades right now are the shittiest they have ever been in my whole life. i dont even want to go into detials of what they are. i didnt think i would get a progress report until i just decided to check and find a heart attack in an enevelope. so of course i take it out then drive to my pops to get it out of his mailbox too. if any of them would ( Read more... )

whoah what a weekend. i went snowboarding with a crap load of people. that was fun. it was a bit crowded for my taste but i got over it. i am soar as hell though. i missed my dream show saturday to go snowboarding but i figured it was worth it after finding out david broke his nose at the show. so there was blood everywhere and he missed the 3 best ( Read more... )