A stupid Nickelback song comes to mind...

[carlyjade]

Yeah...so something tells me that this weekend is going to suck. Why? Because I have NOTHING to do. Matt is working (big surprise), friends are slaves to the cinema, even mom is going to be busy with big exciting horse racing stuff. So I'll pretty much be alone with Carter all weekend, which in itself is not a bad thing; however, when we don't have

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[mandiejay]

I'm always a phone call away...

I still need to meet your little guy and your husband!

[carlyjade]

I know, it's a crime isn't it? I might have to take you up on that phone call, it'd be nice to catch up... thanks for always being so sweet :o)

[sweeetrevvenge]

you're an amazing woman, sweetheart. ♥
instead of going to the party, why don't you bring the party to you?
Maybe not with all of the "drunken-ness", but just kind of like... i don't know, like, a house warming party?? So all the friends that haven't seen you in a long time, or haven't met your baby can have a chance to come over and catch up!
like a highschool graduation party, but not :)
i think that would be super fun.

[carlyjade]

Aww, ya made me blush, Kirsten! hehe

About having a party...hmm, don't know if I can manage that just now. I just threw one for Rachel a couple weeks ago, and Matt gets kinda uncomfortable with lots of people in the house. But I would like to have a few people over more often, not a party but just a "gathering"...that way, we wouldn't even need a babysitter and Matt wouldn't freak out.

I am probably having a barbecue type thing for Carter's birthday too, but that might be just family...I haven't decided yet...

[wildlydivine777]

It is hard sometimes to be 21 and have all the responsibilities that you have and have so little freedom. But, usually, you are able to be grateful for what you do have and feel good. It is important to really know that moods always pass.

Call those old friends you miss. You have let anxiety and fears of rejection control your behavior too much. Look at it this way, if they laugh at you or ignore you or are still angry with you over past mistakes, then are they truly still your friends? That would not be my definition of friendship. Sometimes we glamorize how great everything was in the past. But, sometimes, you were excited, busy, and happy, and sometimes you were bored, sad, and lonely, just like now, and so it will always be forever.