ugh, sophomore year was generally awful. like, really sucked. i'm seriously considering deleting most of what i've written in this thing. because sometimes going against what's reasonable and logical doesn't mean you're being a romantic- it's means you're delusional. lying to yourself (and consequently, everyone else). i was happy? fuck that. ( Read more... )

I'm going to do what? No, no, that can't be me. Surely you've gotten my story confused with someone else. I'm practical. Logical. "Guided by reason". This simply isn't something I would do ( Read more... )

you know who i'm talking about already. that kid who sat in the back of the classroom and didn't have any friends. no, slash that. worse than simply not having friends- had people who despised him. or who were threatened at her willingness to ignore convention. middle school sure can be a bitch ( Read more... )

it's starting to hit me that last night really did happen ( Read more... )

proof that i'm a geek ( Read more... )

i may have said this already- but withdrawing from all of my classes was supposed to fix everything. truly, it was. i was supposed to spend time at home. feel better about- life. the future. what i've lost. who is gone. just, really, all facets of my being ( Read more... )

eventually i'll compose a full, coherent entry for either xanga or livejournal. today may or may not be that day ( Read more... )

i'm having trouble nailing down exactly why i prefer expressing some ideas in french rather than english. certainly for some phrases (j'ai faim) the french equivalent is more precise or simply sounds much more beautiful ( Read more... )

certainly livejournal differs from xanga. perhaps not in principle, no. but i'm sure it will take a fair amount of time to get used to a new interface. in the mean time, i may just keep this journal to myself. it'd be nice to have and maintain something that was my own, apart from the eyes and judgments of others. this ideal is never achieved, ( Read more... )