it hit me hard yesterday morning: going home. leaving ( Read more... )

if you say you love someone so many times, maybe you can make yourself believe you do.
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And they say their lies are better than the tests
And when you came back you killed me with a kiss
Like a glorious fight I wish I missed
Oh shit, I guess I'm in love with the fucked up kid

요즘 내 자신이 정말 무섭다.

words make things happen
words mess things up

animal collective live reminds me of seeing yyys and bss live ( Read more... )

last night was the first time i knew all the notes to all the songs a band was playing.
순간 순간 정말 행복했다...

my emotions are imagined
yours are physical.

sometimes i am shocked by how much influence one can have over another being.

나는 21번째 생일을 혼자 보내고 싶었다.
한순간 내 처지가 불쌍하기도 했지만
이 건 내가 결정한 일이다.

그래, 생일 축하했다, 민주야.
21년 살았네.

it's funny how 3 people who live together can have so little to say to each other
even the creepy 60-some year old man sitting next to us was having a fine time talking about some girl and her facebook picture.

i hate expectations and obligations.
and yes that makes me "flakey" but i won't be fake.
i felt obligated to go then felt guilty about not ( Read more... )

with a hilariously long break for penn, i'm home.
perhaps the tension at thanksgiving has given me some amnesty for this break, but i really shouldn't jinx myself.
in any case, coffee three times a day, good food, lots of sleep and solitude is good for my soul.
otherwise, new music finds & learning/reviewing things have kept me sane despite all this ( Read more... )