I figured out the password to my account. Its been 4 years since I've been here. It's Funny to reread entries from my freshman year in high school. I'm 26 years old now and living a life I never thought I would be living. I'm happy with it for the most part and thats what matters. Reading those entries though was refreshing reminder of how silly I ( Read more... )

Its hard to keep motivated and stay motivated ( Read more... )

I feel like everything is getting back into order after years of chaos.. I feel like I'm speaking too soon, I'm so excited though so can you blame me? I am afraid to completely come to the realization and keep myself in denial that things are going good. It seems everytime I recogize it everything falls apart agian and takes way too long to pick up ( Read more... )

I dont like having no direction and no goal. Its like everything I'm doing in my life is pointless.  I hate that. I have buckled down and made a serious decision with myself to get this shit in gear and pick something. I am almost to the point of being raging mad at things, to the point where  I'm just like fuck this I'm going to do this get the ( Read more... )

There are some things in life you will never heal from. The only thing you can do to survive is learn to cope. Every day it will flash through your mind and every time it will hurt. It will never get better. And so you cope with that. You learn to live with the pain long enough until you don't feel it any more. That doesn't mean its gone, it's ( Read more... )

how long does it take to get over missing things? 
its been almost 3 years

I'm still waiting.... :/

Pick up Twilight, and read it.
Then take New Moon, read that too.. 
I'm sure Eclipse will be amazing. (I'm currently reading it now)
Then read all three again until August 2nd when Breaking Dawn comes out. 
and theeen December 12th go see the movie Twilight with Robert Pattinson (aka Cedric Diggory) as Edward. 
I love Edward. a lot. he's sooooo dreamy. ( Read more... )

 why did you leave Edward? 
Why!

 okay so instead of studying for my math final I planned out the next couple years of my life, I'm not doing too bad considering if I had stuck with my major to BEGIN WITH I would be done as planned in 5, not 4 years. No big, I'm about a year behind so its more like 6 years (ralph). I'll be all set especially if I can get into the physics class ( Read more... )

today is Robert's birthday... happy birthday my friend, missing you everyday.. wish you were here ( Read more... )