I'm At Bridget and Tom's house. I've had some wine. I've established a vivid picture of Walter and me driving here for Halloween. I remember stopping for gas and energy drinks. That's really all I remember. The memory isn't a bad one. I just don't think about those times much. I guess it makes me a little lonely.

I had a dream about Anthony last night. I don't want to forget it. The happiness I feel in those dreams is like no other ( Read more... )

I wish I could shake these thoughts from my dreams ( Read more... )

What an enjoyable winter break so far. I can not remember the last time I have enjoyed life this much. I have had a great time with my family and friends. Sometimes I surprise myself with how content I am being alone. In the past I had always jumped from one relationship into the next. I would date the first person that came my way, and ( Read more... )

I realized today that I'm beginning to forget what it was like to be with Walter. I can't picture myself with him. I don't want to picture myself with him. I don't want to find comfort in his arms. I don't want to be back in my Virginia apartment. It's slipping into a distant memory - one that I don't visit often. I go entire days without ( Read more... )

Every year on Christmas I usually leave some entry about lonely the holiday makes me feel ( Read more... )

"water seeks its own level ( Read more... )

"Tell me how you've been ( Read more... )

Why is it assumed that this is easier on me because I was the one that ended the relationship ( Read more... )

The nights are getting harder. I am very lonely, and very confused. I can't get my thoughts straight. I feel more lost now than I did while I was losing my identity every day. Maybe it's because I lost a lot more in myself than I had realized. I thought I had escaped unharmed, but now I'm not so sure. I am not a depressed zombie... I am still  ( Read more... )