i have a sore throat and my right eye hurts. but i decorated my LAST class competition night hallway today. next year, it'll all still happen but it won't be a part of me anymore. things were different this year, the traditional hallways were ka-puutz and so was the unneccessary competitiveness. it was really nice. the grades mingled, we ( Read more... )

today i . . . woke up in a good mood, got into a bad mood, avoided my spanish midterm, got into a better mood, found the disk i lost, laughed alot, enjoyed my company, got into a horrible mood, utilized the internet to increase my crappy mood, decided to get over it, started editing my ee, watched my favorite show in the whole world, defended a ( Read more... )

i'm proud of myself. i think i did more work this weekend than i did the first 4 months of school. my extended essay is officially 99.9% done and that feels excellent. my history ia is as complete as it ever will be, i'm submitting it tomorrow morning. i feel like my work is making some definite damage in the IB program again ( Read more... )

my extended essay almost has 2,500 words. which means that i could possibly say i'm almost at t-minus 1,000 words. but i could potentially have up to 1,500 words left.

i have a neck ache, a headache, a back ache and my brain hurts. i bought everything i ate today because i couldn't spare the energy to actually make / find something in my house.

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i feel like a junior again, just for today really. last year i use to be really excited about the things i was learning about. i was really into it, i never shut up when i was home. i swear my family can probably pick up an ethical debate on the pros and cons and restrictions on the number of children in china as quickly as i could. i was really ( Read more... )

i'm ready for a change. but the thing is,

i'm always ready for a change. but the thing is,

i'm never ready to go after it.

going back to school was not horrendous. i missed some parts of it - and now i know the next time i have a break from school, i'll be in the mediterranean with my best friends. there's notsomuch better than that. i was getting ready to be dissapointed that we didn't have that cute-sy pop-ish song in chorus this year. (think: lullabye - billy joel, ( Read more... )

two days later, i finally feel better.  as if i wasn't beating myself up over it enough, my body decided to try and die on me. alcohol and i are currently in a really big fight. at least physically, i'm back - the guilt aspect will probably last a bit longer.

( jeez louise. )

so i met drunk meg's evil twin on new year's eve. and she's kind of a bitch. devon said that i've officially learned that alcohol is TOXIC and you can't drink it like water. i really should have taken that advice to heart 48 hours ago.

and yeah, two day hangovers are a bitch and forgetting new year's eve is still gonna take a while.

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2005. it's been a pretty okay time. there have been the ups, there have been the downs.

this year i think i found myself a little more. i don't just take parts of everyones' personalities and put them together until i have something i can call my own. i finally know what i like and what i don't - i don't need other people to tell me like i use to ( Read more... )