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is my new jounal.

It's true!

God! i have felt soooooo shitty ever since monday night, hey it was labor day, you know, an excuse to get faded! I feel better now, hurray for me. when i had to drive to school tuesday i was still pretty tipsy. I was sooo dizzy and almost fell down the stairs, but aaron wasn't budging so i had to drive to class. thank god i only had ( Read more... )

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Last night was a very strange night, followed up by a very strange morning. I dont know what it is lately, but I am always crying, and shaking and wondering why can't i be good enough for him. why wont he love me, why does he leave me alone at night in a place i am not fully comfortable being by myself. why does he go to his friends and not even ( Read more... )

soooo....good news for me...i got my scholarship! hell yeah, so i dont have to pay for any tuition my entire time at any of the maricopa community colleges! hell yeah. and i get half of what it would have cost from my dad, so 380$ this semester and another next! fuck yes! this rocks. and i was accepted to be part of the Mesa Legend [MCC's newspaper ( Read more... )

So this entire month aaron has been looking for a job, it took him 3 weeks to find a job, and then he lost his job. I think he is going to ask his mom for money today. I dont really give a fuck how he gets his half of rent as long as he gets it. and that is what i told him. i said i was sick of being up late at night sick with worry and his lazy ( Read more... )

everything was supposed to be perfect. i am gone, away from them, and now everything seems worse ( Read more... )

all i have to do is get through the rest of today, tomorrow and start moving out on thursday ( Read more... )

moving out in 8 days and he doesnt have one job. where i have two he has none. sure he is looking right now, but still. he just doesnt try. thank god i am leaving my parents rediculous grasp.

i hate my job.
i love my job.
which ever is which who knows.