This is the journal of CE Davis. i have kept this a Nom de Plume journal for the sake of keeping drama down. i have no fear that this drama will affect only me from now on and not affect my girls.
SO in the interest of fairness I am making the public connection of this and the other LJ account.

I fear what is in my heart right now. I fear the familiar darkness and it's destination. I fear the comming darkness of my soul. Too much has been asked and too much given for this to be the result. I fear what is taking up the empty corners of my beingand their pet monsters. Filling the blank pages of my life without remorse.

There have been some fundamental changes in my life, relationships, and basic self. There are so many things I long to say but discretion, loyalty (how ever deserved or undeserved) and my own self respect of my privacy will not let me allow ( Read more... )

I feel like I am in school waiting for the bell to ring. Eventually the teacher will call my name and I will shout "HERE". To be counted as being present. Not conscious, not ready but simply there. Today I have suited up and shown up. Some days that is my best. Breath , eat , nod at appropriate times...But am I really here or just present?

Useless/ uninteresting drama.
Deadbeat producers
Lead singers as directors (we all have a vision buddy)
Whiners bitching about the kharmic bitch slap
Singing, Dancing Egos
McFood Poisoning
Rude queens who consistantly greet my wife with "Hay Whore"
burachratic cockups

I am still alive.

mmmm yup it is still here ....HI! don't expect much I am still not blogging here for the same reasons of security and privacy.

For reasons of personal privacy and general drama I will no longer be posting in this account.

SO i hsve a mit of time to finaly write something .

Damm i can't think of what to right about

oh well mabey later

Four years into a war in the Middle East. Countless lives lost and destroyed to give a people “democary and freedom” as if it were a Christmas present. And now the “reasons given, on video tape mind you, are not turning out to be truth. Why? How did we as a Democratic nation get steered into this mess? Apathy? Fear? Gullibility? Partly . Why then ( Read more... )