no.
i think i was wrong.
i can admit that.
you do understand.
you just don't care.
maybe, hopefully, i'm wrong again.

"No love, no friendship can cross the path of our destiny without leaving some mark on it forever."
- Francois Mauriac

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i don't know what to do.
this feeling is not going anywhere.

“What I know is that what’s in his eyes is different from any of the other eyes that have looked at me, judged me, pitied me and written me off over the last years. What I know is that I can trust his eyes because what lives in them, lives in me.”
-James Frey, A Million Little Pieces

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"We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit."
-E. E. CUMMINGS

i've had a lot of personal, reflective time the past three days.
i've been doing the independent thing.
maybe too much.
my mind is a creative force, it can make anything out of nothing.
it is almost dangerous.
the book i'm reading doesn't help.
i need an outlet.
soon.

Fiction is the truth inside the lie.
-Stephen King

all in all-- today: not so bad.
my resolution: i will forget the last two big holidays, christmas and new years, and have a good day tomorrow.

"Perhaps the most important thing we can undertake toward the reduction of fear is to make it easier for people to accept themselves, to like themselves."
BONARO W. OVERSTREET

it feels good to have the decision made. it will probably feel even better when it is final.
i can relax.
oh, and i'm going to. it's all downhill from here... i love it.

"If government were a product, selling it would be illegal."
-P. J. O'Rourke

i got locked out of my house today, while everyone was home. it sucked. it was dark.

"Everyone is special in his/her own way. Remember to treat everyone in the way you want to be treated. Have you hugged your neighbor lately?"
-Stephen Hornback

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