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Tattooed lying on the bed don't regret smashing her fist into the wall, crazy beautiful
So I got my tattoo today. Got there way early to prevent being late and walked around in the snow, going in and out of small, over-expensive shops and dollar stores that make you leave your purse in the front, ate pizza and cheesecake, and then finallyfinallyfinally it was time. I went to the Tattoo shop. Got there a minute before 1 p.m. ( Read more... ) -
Pheonix, Rising
YES! The day has finally come. Tomorrow the semester ends after an exam that I'm going to fail (or get a C on, if I get around to reading my textbook)....either way, I'll probably get a C in the course, so it doesn't matter. Then it's time to sell back my geology textbook, hopefully get a lot of money for it, and then get on the bus to the Tattoo ( Read more... ) -
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i cant stand this, i cant stand this, i feel so empty and hollow and sad and dont know why, i cant make myself get up off my bed to wash my face, to go eat something or do something to distract myself, i just can't move, i am trapped here by loss of momentum, and i feel so so alone, right now and all the time, i don't know how to tell anyone that i ( Read more... ) -
feeling....like im not enough
When I woke up this morning I didn't want to get out of bed, let alone go to my weight-lifting class. But, I did, and got there in the nick of time. Turns out today was the day they tested us to see if we improved from the beginning (12 minute treadmill, pushups, sit-ups, sit and reach, being weighed, et cetera). I was so tired and weary because ( Read more... ) -
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ugh. why do i have to always feel this way. its 1:26 a.m so i should just sleep but i am so alone and empty and i dont know....i cant really describe what it is i feel; reading twilight fanfiction isn't working, in fact its making it worse...and its so dark outside and i'm right by the window and that adds to my mood i guess....the idea of ( Read more... ) -
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And the world crumbles to dust. Those still clinging to their belongings perished. Their ashes are scattered everywhere and I cannot see for the shadows tainting the light. It is so dark in here. I don't think there is a way out. I don't even want there to be. In the dark there's more room for error. -
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i cant sleep. also lately my breasts have been hurting me a lot, also my lower back. probably just because when i exercise my bras dont really support my breasts that well. and i know the back is from back bends. but thats not really why i cant sleep; completely unrelated. i should be tired, it's past 1 a.m. and i have to get up early tomorrow ( Read more... ) -
MY BELIEFS:
1. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS MENTAL ILLNESS ( Read more... ) -
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I'm finding that it is almost becoming a competition with myself, and that I want to be able to go deeper. One part of me is thrilled and is perfectly fine to keep going this way, and the other part of me can see that I am nearing a certain line that I didn't know existed months ago, and at this time it would probably be easy for me to stop, cold ( Read more... ) -
Tattoo
In a month (maybe a little more than a month) I'm getting a tattoo of a Pheonix on my breast with the feathers going down on my upper arm. I'm scared about it going onto my upper arm because even though mostly I use my lower forearm to cut, I'm worried that I'll destroy the tattoo. But mostly I'm just excited. The guy in the tattoo parlor was ( Read more... )