My newest Hangout, the library. funny thing, as a child i used to dream about sitting in the library for hours on end studying. aspiring to be somthing great. And sure enough although sleepy i love to sit int he library, int he quiet, in a nice chair and study. lol im such a freakin dork. Now sitting in class thats a diffrent story. i dunno why ( Read more... )

WOw long time no post eh.

Tongiht i feel liek I've lost somthing.  I'm not sure what it is... not yet.  But i feel my self colapsing repetidly.  No literally in a physical way... but my insides.  As I mindlessly slap up skins form pizza I suddenly visualize myself in a deady colapsing moment.  the the hollow inside me has finally caught up.  But ( Read more... )

Who am I? Pieces of you? Pieces of society? But who am I? Can I ever be trully myself? I find myself saying things I heard another person say. so if it's not somthing I'd say why do I say it? and if i say nothing that isnt a tuly origional thought of my own will I ever speak a word? These things make me sad. I want to be me, without your words ( Read more... )

Horror rained out from her lungs as she watched herself be pulled into the ocean. The world was blue and brown and mysterious ( Read more... )

this used to have a pic here that said "if you woke up breathing again this morning, congratulations u have another chance."

At the moment I feel very strong.  Both physically and mentaly and even emotionally.  And It feels really                            good.  In this moment I feel like saying "Get the hell out of my life" to a selt few people.  And I think that maybe why I'v been feeling so angry latley.  And i havn't let it out, becaus emy strength comes and goes ( Read more... )

Across moonlight Kisses ( Read more... )

If you decided
          To let it go
Where would it run off to?

If I told you
          I was sick of it all
Would you Know what All was?

If the day
        Became night to soon
Why would you curse the sun in the morning?

And If it falls >>through<< the floor
      What catches it --
Where would it end?

I've been angry latley uncontrollably angry. Not outwardly, and not directed towards anyone.  But it's begining to take it's toll on my insides.  I can feel my body broiling deep down when something happens that i don't like or i begin to think about somthing that might annoy me.  Few weeks ago when i became irritated or upset iI might have lashed ( Read more... )

No matter hwo much anxiety, a room full of freshmen really made my day.  The way i see it ill be consummed with the folowing elements for the next few years in order to get the career I like.  And as I told tia today : "gimmi a gun a trenchcoat and a casefile and I'm the happiest woman you'd meet. "  So basicly ( Read more... )