Wow...i finally talked to Noreen for the first time in two weeks...i don't why but i believe everything she says and I take the chance of her totally lieing...i trust her she wouldn't lie ...and if she is i think i'll curl into a fetal position and die..my fingers hurt from playing guitar alot...oh man and i had a whole like ...fucking essay typed ( Read more... )

Sometimes i see the really bad things i deal with and i don't see the good things.....so hear i am...yet again realizing the really bad things ...when i hear music i feel so ,finally free! Free from all the ugly things that Earth occupies. There's so much beauty but not here, in Miami. I mean some women are pretty but...you normal people would ( Read more... )

Hollow ( Read more... )

Last night was probably one of the most roller coaster nights I've had since my life re-started. Let's start by me going to the marlin game and they lost badly 6-1. But atleast the fireworks after the game were beautiful. Then i came home and I could not sleep ....then i started calling people...first i called Noreen and her step dad said she was ( Read more... )

So many stupid things in one damn day. Let's see ... like three days ago nicole broke up with her boyfriend and then yesterday I went to the movies with her to one of our friends birthday get-together and saw spiderman 2. Luckily she didn't make a move on me cause a) she only wants flings with guys b) she justs got out of a relationship and c)I don ( Read more... )

Last night I dreamed that you were dead ( Read more... )

Wow i just struggled opening a wrapper for a fruit snack thing! Damn ! Lately I've been feeling pretty down , and my family hasn't really helped. Last night when I got home my step dad was like " where have u been, no one knew where u where " and I deliberately told my mom i was going to my friend's house. Then I just got accused of other things ( Read more... )

Well I'm back from my scuba trip and yes I am now a professional open water scuba diver.Thank you Thank you ....i feel like shit ! Like deep deep shit although i'm clinging to one small thread of hope ...or maybe like 5 but still ..i just wish it would rain, and that it would never end, and it would wash away my ex girlfriend so i wouldn't have to ( Read more... )

Ugh..i spent last night in a freaking tent out in the middle of some fucking campground and me and my church friends ( zack,levi,scott,jared,carl,and charles )went around the campsite throwing toilet paper over people's tents and fun stuff like that ...we got like 2 hours of sleep cause we had to wake up for something for church this morning..then ( Read more... )

Whew just when I thought today couldn't get any worse it really did. First of all Andrew was gonna come over and maybe some more friends from church but then i feel asleep ( i wish i stayed asleep ) and Andrew went out with some friends so i cancelled the whole " movie at my house thing" then I watched the marlins lose horribbly to the Tampa Bay ( Read more... )