If I have ever loved you, if I have ever so much as kissed you, if you have ever been more than a passing acquaintance... don't call. Don't find some reason for us to catch up, search for the right moment to kiss me just when I think things have gone back to normal. The only reason you even remotely care is to determine what I can do for you. To ( Read more... )

 I just had to pull myself away from looking at pictures of me and John on facebook. i don't know what started it, but it is a bad place to go. I dont think it is a developing feelings again thing so much as a I feel crappy, you make me feel nice thing. I dont want to go anywhere near the world of getting back together, especially not for all the ( Read more... )

 Today i decided to try my hand at vegetarian cooking. Its not that i suddenly have a moral issue with eating meat, but veggies are generally healthier, and easier for me to get. So i went to produce junction and walked away with at least ten lbs of veggies for 4 bucks. Its a crazy little bulk produce store so i can't buy less than 3 lbs of ( Read more... )

First of all, go to http://www.candyboots.com/wwcards.html It is the funniest thing i have seen in forever.

Secondly, this is essentially either a) a waste of time because I havent updated in so long that no one reads it or b) absolutely perfect because i haven't updated in so long that no one reads it. It fulfills the whole needing to project ( Read more... )

Go see Grindhouse. Its amazing. And start listening to The Academy Is. They are also amazing...

I’ve got that lefty curse
Where everything I do is flipped
And awkwardly reversed
You’re seldom known and barely missed
I always put myself
In destructive situations
I need oxygen
To be exposed where no one goes, where no one’s been
When it all comes crashing…

(ah ( Read more... )

There is something really amazing about actually doing art. i spend so much time analyzing and interpreting other peoples art work, but doing my own is another story. I'm still trying to forestall a panic attack. Its like trying to forget a song thats stuck in your head. You go out of your way to not think about it, but not thinking about means ( Read more... )

Im done going out for a little while. It didnt take long for alcohol to lose its charm, especially when you wake up uncomfortable in someone else's house. An then there's hangovers. Friday was a good day for all of 4 hours, the rest of it ranged from mediocre to awful. Today has yet to see a highlight. Men lately, have been pretty big ( Read more... )

Men, when meeting a woman in a bar or other social setting, will frequently place a her in one fo two categories: Girlfriend or Slut. Either he finds in her some fundamental element that makes him want to sleep next to her before sleeping with her, she gets placed in the girlfriend category. These are usually the women who already have boyfriends, ( Read more... )

In the end, when all is said and done, forgetting you will be the easiest thing that I've done. I'm done with this, done with the drama that is instantly created every time you open your mouth. You are finished making me feel bad and leaving me with nothing to say because either way, I'm wrong. You wont ask me again to drop my whole life to drive ( Read more... )

I'm not sure If its my mood determining the music, or vice versa. I know that I'm wandering form room to room trying to find somethign to do that will keep me occupied enough to stop thinking. My mind just keeps going on the same rambling circles. I feel like I've put something off for too long and that a big something is about to blow in my face, ( Read more... )