I smile. Not as much as I used to, but I do.

I'm still so so sad. It's finally become real that Amanda just is never coming back. I try not to let others see how much it affects me that she's gone. It's just so...final.

I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to wallow in never ending pity and sadness. I just want it all to be the same. Is that ( Read more... )

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