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it was so easy, and the words so sweet
It's occurred to me that I need to start keeping a real diary, one of the boring kinds where you just sort of write down what happened to you that day. For memory's sake. My biggest fear is forgetting everything.
Although it would be a release.
And what's there to miss when you can't remember?
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horrible human being
Everyone has their hopes and dreams and stuff like that. And I have mine too. But right now, at this point in time, there is nothing I want more than to be about 15 lbs thinner. I want my ass gone, I want my hips gone, I want my stomach gone, I want my legs gone, I want my back, shoulders, arms, calves, neck, ankles, sides, all of it, gone. Now ( Read more... ) -
balloon
life is not all right ( Read more... ) -
when life gives you lemons, throw them away
I want to punch something right now ( Read more... ) -
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I always set myself up for disaster. I think things are one way and they're really another or another, or maybe I don't know how things are. It's cause of my horrible insecurities and fear of abandonment set on by my parents who both left (one who blamed me for leaving! Or maybe both did. Never thought of it like that, it would make sense) me ( Read more... ) -
Still Coming
Another song I wrote on the train, though I can't remember much of it and i can't remember the tune. I'm just gonna copy down what i wrote in my cell phone word for word because my cell has this nasty tendency to delete my notes I write in it, so I have to back it up asap. In the form of half a dozen notes, here we go ( Read more... ) -
a song i wrote on my cell phone while drunk on the train (lets call an apple an apple)
i need to clear my cache ( Read more... ) -
drunken phenomena
The music is coming from all around me. My arms are scratched by kitten love. The song never ends. I do.
Alligator skin. So lovely yet so deadly. Approach with caution. -
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Emotional breakdown last night. Right now just lonely as hell and I can really go for a drink, despite the fact that I'm still in my pajamas and it's before 3. I can also really go for a hug and possibly a hammer to the head. -
good morning world
I hate waking up in the morning and looking at myself in the mirror and realizing how fat I am. I don't care if I was 40 lbs heavier a few years ago. It needs to go away, like now. Maybe I should try not eating again, that worked out well for me in high school and I was a size 3. I hate those skinny girls who have no hips and can wear the skinny ( Read more... )