remember - a paranoid is simply someone in possession of all of the facts

Have not had a legitimate moment to myself in blah knows how long. Things are finally going to get better soon. My month of september has been as follows ( Read more... )

Figured I'd post some sensical things, as opposed to the norm.

3 more shifts at Starbucks left, which I'm both excited and scared about. I might back out of it, but idk. Didn't back out of my haircut, the shortest in years, and I don't regret it one bit. But at least the job at starbucks is concrete, my other job "prospect(s)" still seem like they ( Read more... )

I like the smell of rosemary burning. It's like nature's incense ( Read more... )

whatever happened to not understanding things?

My childhood is lost. Not in a Michael Jackson way. More of a pathetic way.
We shine in the lights of our monitors. No one looks at each other anymore.
Why don't I believe in love anymore?
I don't believe in anything.
It scares the crap out of me.
As a child's words fall on their parents' deaf ears,
My ( Read more... )

I don't know what's going on anymore. One minute I feel like I've really made the right decision and the next minute I get that feeling in the pit of my stomach like I have no idea what's going on. Like I'm alone and scared in this freaking gigantic world, and there's no one there to help me ( Read more... )

It's when you need something in life the most that life will give it to you. Not talking that 50" flatscreen HD TV. Because maybe life thinks you need some disappointment and letdown. Maybe you need some suffering, maybe a lot of suffering. Maybe you need to feel like shit for a while, because sometimes that's the best thing for you ( Read more... )

Whining in journals really yields no results. So I'm going to say that even though stuff is hard now, I'm going to overcome it and move on to amazing things in my life, there are hundreds of adventures in front of me and it's up to me which one to choose, the world is my oyster and all I have to do is open it up ( Read more... )

inside the darkest and twisted vision
lies the memories once past
for all we carry with ourselves
some things that always will last

Out by the midday sun
You see what once was there
had become
A mirror to a future world
In a universe right next to ours

cant think. I don't want this

But I can't feel anything at all. I'm numb right now. Can't even cry. That'll come later. Long night ahead, I can sense it.

Something broke inside my stomach. I let the pieces lie just where they fell.