I feel many things all at once. I feel the magnitude of my beliefs and I feel that I must contrast these with reality while trusting myself all the while. My feelings as of now include this rash, dire need to get away from this relationship, to do everything possible to leave these feelings of obligation. This connects into the fact that since ( Read more... )

Returning back into the world has been an intense experience for me..what do you know. Coming down from the mountains of Colorado into the smog covered city of Denver, driving amidst tons of fast driving cars scared the shit out of me. When i was out in the middle of the quiet desert i couldn't really imagine what the rest of the world looked like ( Read more... )

I can't believe that I'm writing in here. Why ( Read more... )

spring has brought joy and magic back into my life after a long winter of pain and loss. Ive been feeling so many extreme emotions lately. There is so much..energy in my life right now. so much excitement and anticipation, but also so much being here right now. i am healing myself and by doing this im helping to heal the people around me. its so ( Read more... )

January fifth. I've been saying the dates aloud lately and allowing it to sink it. 2007. today being entirely new and fresh, its funny how we forget that every day is new and not like the day before it. i forget that all the time. it goes along with not having expectations- who knows what could happen today, it hasn't happened before? why are we ( Read more... )

I am in such a strange strange place. caught between laughter and tears, pain and joy. Its through this loss that I begin to recognize that these emotions are the same, two sides of the same. i feel beauty and strength, but i mainly feel sorrow. i am sorrowful ( Read more... )

a beautiful Lhasa dog as my partner, she shares my warm bed and my warm couch and my warm food with me ( Read more... )

crying for beauty and joy, now thats what i want to save my tears for ( Read more... )

Once again, I reject the desert. my blood runs thin because of the decision ( Read more... )

the only way i know to go is because who i am is telling me to go. some people would call this intuition. my intuition is imagined as the ocean, and even something like the ocean which is miles and miles away from the dreamed of destination is urging me to go ( Read more... )