Sometimes I look at old pictures of myself and I just want to jump right into that same body and human being that I was. Maybe it was the safer way to go but I was so...solid. I see myself a year and a half ago just out having fun, and feeling confident and content and I miss that so much. I wasn't scared or lonely or afraid of breaking down. I ( Read more... )

 I am so stressed about money right now. Why doesn't it grow on trees?

I had an interview with this amazing family yesterday for a nanny job. I hope I get it so badly. They're a pretty young couple, probably 26 or so and their daughter is 18 months and adorable. I'm just getting so anxious not having a steady income yet.

:( Its times like this that ( Read more... )

 I admit that I am guilty for even going on this website, but this seriously disgusts me ( Read more... )

 For a long time now, I have been so concerned with knowing all of the answers. I am realizing that I am so scared of change that I end up ruining the present by constantly worrying about the future. I have always been somewhat mature for my age which in some ways can be a blessing but also a big burden at times. I always push myself to think ( Read more... )

 
I am scared of these feelings,
Cause I've been left dead and barely breathing.
You bare your heart and soul just to realize,
all your efforts were just tossed aside.

I want to love you,
and I want to trust you.
Maybe given just a little time,
I will find the strength to make you mine.
Show me how.

From the moment I first saw you,
and felt the warmth ( Read more... )

 shit.

 I leave next Thursday! :)

Caitlin isn't going to mope around tonight. I am going out.

Basically all my life is going to be consisting of the next month and a half is working, the gym, and perhaps a few nights at the Turtle Club in between ( Read more... )

Trev left today. It was so nice to have him here. I missed him ( Read more... )