I feel like I come up here every few months or so, so I'm sorry. I don't have a computer at this time. But yet again I am sad. My ex crush my ex best friend and my sometimey friend are here and I am just sad. I guess I'm a jealous friend but I can't help it. Anytime I have something good in my life, someone or something messes it up. I am happy ( Read more... )

Oh where do I begin in the diaries of my life...upon coming back to school in my new car I stayed away from those who try to bring me down...and then I gain vanity in it's place. I don't know if I should have but hey I have lots of people crushing on me and the fact that I was (I didn't know until last night) apart of the elite group of guys on ( Read more... )

Well Lance and I talked the other night and we will just be friends. I already told my twin this, but I wanted to put it in here anyway. He is such a nice person and he didn't lie about anything or beat around the bush. He was forward with everything. And ever so funny, I wish things could have been different. Oh well, maybe God has another plan ( Read more... )

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Ok. I've been so into L (Cuervo) in the past few weeks that other people haven't even crossed my mind. He is soo sweet and soo nice and funny. I also have found out...by reading his web journal...that we have a lot of things in common even to the way we think, feel, and act. Our pasts are even similar and I took those cute online quizzes and guess ( Read more... )

So last night I talked to Lance again for 3 and a half hours. It was really great, but before I talked to who I thought was a good friend who "detoxed me from how I get depressed" I had really gotten mad at him but it was worth it....Hell Mother Fucking NO. His bitch ass lied to me about somethings. This was the same guy who I liked and fucking ( Read more... )

So my life is about to make a 360 and I'm about to be happy. The other guy is so sweet and nice. We talked again on Monday and he left a message on his xanga site that had me in tears. He also sent me some pictures of himself. Can we say fine. I told him that he looked like a model in his pics, but he said that his friend took them and he's a ( Read more... )

Why do people fall in love for love to only play with their minds ( Read more... )

Just when I thought that everything was ok. I had found the one. Something happens and he wants to be alone. I finally understand why when on thursday night I had to ask him for a class. He was the only one I knew that was in the situation, and we had that intimate moment of talking. I realised his pain, but now I hurt. I hurt because I ran into ( Read more... )

Well here I go again. Feeling like shit and going through everything but happiness. I feel like crying, my eating has changed again; Boone is not for me. I hate this place. I think I'm going to just live the rest of my college career going to class, studying, and making good grades for my gpa's sake. I need to hurry up and leave this place before ( Read more... )