Well. Livejournal is working again. I suppose now I can continue with the depressing entries that, if I'm luky, no one will ever read.

well, today was thanksgiving. theres not a lot im really thankful for. pretty much my day was ruined before i even got out of bed and it didnt get much better as the day progressed. the food was good, but i didnt much feel like eating. I wish about two thirds of it had gone to a family that couldnt afford thanksgiving dinner so that they ( Read more... )

everything that i've made an effort at writing since... well, since the loss of moira has been tainted to a greater or lesser extent, and this is one of only three such written things, being the only story. Even after Shakena's review of it, i felt it could be salvaged, however, if i were to sit down with it long enough to get it signifigantly ( Read more... )

I burned my hand pretty bad a few minutes ago. i was draining some pasta when some of the boiling water splashed onto my hand. fortuitously, it wasn't very much and it was on the top of my hand and not the bottom. Net result: painful, but not serious or debilitating. Anyways, I was thinking about something. No, not moira, at least not directly ( Read more... )

it is with no small sense of irony that i say what i shall this night. Indeed, the simplest, most random occurances have taken upon themselves the darkest irony imaginable, and at this my whole world is a vault of shadows and horrors. so i say that there are much worse things than irony and will not speak of specifics in that matter. On a whim, ( Read more... )

sometimes, when i go look at my game collection, which now has ninja gaiden 2, ratchet and clank, rogue galaxy, ffXI, and a few others that aren't worth mentioning, i just start crying, or at least my eyes do. I guess i really should be, because once upon a time, video games were my escape when nothing else but reading would work. Now, playing ( Read more... )

things got much worse since i did the last entry, but i believe that they may be stabilized for now thanks to some insights i picked up this morning. my chest is hurting again, though. if i didnt have other, more important things then id be thinking heart attack. im not, though, for several reasons, most notably that it seems to be tied to my ( Read more... )

"...and for showing me again and again that no matter how many mistakes we've made, the ending has not yet been written ( Read more... )

i was going to talk to someone. after today, rght now, i dont see any way i can

i have to report a singular occurance. if the creature is real then i will now have to summon it alone. tonya offered me help, but not knowledge, and after i sent her that email telling her to either leave me alone about moira or leave, i do not expect that i can count on her help. since i will not be able, apparently, to summon it by ritual, ( Read more... )