i cant help it. i am a worthless cunt who cant hold down a job who has to rely on daddy to pay my rent and my bills. oh yea, and did i mention i am still hung up on nick???

Today is my last day of quitting smoking.  At least this is the last day that it should be difficult.  After day three there are no more cravings, at least no more as far as brain chemistry goes.  My brother has been really nice about it as well.  He hides his cigarettes when he comes over.  When I see one, I want to smoke it.  Other than that, I'm ( Read more... )

Day #1 of the no smoking for Lindsey plan went on without a hitch.  I feel fine and only slightly craved a cigarette when my brother and his girlfriend were having one at my place tonight.  I've done this before and it is very easy.  I can't wait to be able to wake up and not cough a bunch upon rising ( Read more... )

Halo - The Cure

I never felt like this with anyone before

You only have to smile and I'm dizzy

You make the world go round

A thousand times an hour

Just touch my head

And send me spinning

I never felt like this with anyone before

You show me colours and I'm crying

You hold my eyes in yours

And open up the world

I can't believe all this

I want to keep this ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt so happy that you can't help but cry?  I hadn't until yesterday.  It is such a strange feeling.  It's altogether new to me.  I've been really happy in my life before this, but I can't say that I have ever felt exactly the same kind of happiness I am currently experiencing ( Read more... )

I'll try not to get my hopes up, but I met this really amazing guy last night.  We went to Blue Velvet at the Circle Cinema.  I had gone the night before as well with Abby and Angela.  It was worth seeing again on the big screen because that movie is incredibly fucked up ( Read more... )

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I want to call it National Admit and Apologize (to anyone you have ever abused) Week.  It will be held during the first full week of every New Year. 

enjoy acting happy about accidental happenings.  My brother is one of them.  I know he really isn't thrilled about the fact that his girlfriend got pregnant.  She is happy about it and I know that the reason he is acting happy about it is so he will not have to be alone.  I love him and I can't help but be excited about having a niece or nephew ( Read more... )