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im done with this live journal bullshit. it seems like the only people that read it are the ones i wish never had.

ive been a bitch. i dont know why. everyone, im sorry. ive been acting really weird lately. the voice came back and im really fucking scared. im saying/doing shit id never do. yesturday was really scary, i put a gun to my head ( he told me to) but couldnt bring myself to pull the trigger. all i could think about was my sister. i made tyler cry. ( Read more... )

ugh! my and brian got in a fight or whatever. i was a bitch and he was a bitch right back. he talkes to me condesendingly and i fucking hate that. i apoligized and meant it, but i dont think he really cares. what pissed me off the most is when he was like oh i tried to be casual friends with you blah blah blah. casual friends thats bull, casual ( Read more... )

JESUS CHRIST! THIS DUDE IS A FUCKING RETARD! I DONT WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND ANYMORE

i'm so upset, fuck, im really fucking depressed. It's my fault; i ventured where i shouldn't have, found out shit i was never intended to. i cant do this, i shouldn't have gotten involved, i knew better. Why did i even let myself care in the first place, why do i STILL care about him? everything is wrong, all wrong. i wanna curl up in my bed and ( Read more... )

Had a decent weeekend. My car will be in the shop for about 2 months, REALLY SUCKS!Im feeling really bitchy for no apparent reason. im going now.

me and tyler got in a car wreck today. noone is hurt but the axle on my car is fucked up and insurance wont cover it because im not supposed to have people in my car. AND that means im probably gonna have my license suspended until im 21! its complete bull shit. i was having a great fucking day before that shit happened. i was feeling happy again. ( Read more... )

Me and brian are done with. whatever. the only thing that pisses me off is he expects me to pretend like nothing ever happened. excuse me if i cant just turn emotion on and fucking off at will. i really liked him but i guess no im supposed to pretend like weve never even kissed.

im pretty sure Bri Bri dont read this anymore so here we go ( Read more... )