i was so wrong. and i'm so glad i was so wrong because i don't want to leave south, or south stage, with anything but love. and i'm happy because i know what i'd like to get better at and i'll have a chance to make a fresh start at simmons and try to do things differently, but i also know that despite little snags, i'm ridiculously pleased with ( Read more... )

sometimes it's depressing to look at your past because you were such an idiot.

livejournal is such a voyeuristic activity. and face it, that's why we enjoy it.

i've been such a blind idiot throughout so much of high school.

you know that prom picture that you see in everyones photo albums? the one where all the girls line up in front of a big green bush, turn their left shoulder out, put their right hand of the waist of the girl in front of them, look out at the camera and smile? yeah that one. i'll never get to have that one. and it feels like a lot more of a big ( Read more... )

i fucking hate regret. i hate how it eats away at you and thinking about how there's nothing you can do to change the past only makes it worse. i regret not making time in my schedule for chorus this year ( Read more... )

i feel like i should have gone to the memorial service at oak hill. if only because we are the last ones left who remember. and i didn't because it would have scared me, and that is a terrible reason not to do something ( Read more... )

these next few weeks are going to be nice. since speech is done and i've got a head start on Heidi costumes, there will be ample time for tech, which will basically complete my life.

did you ever find it painful to look at a camp website?

i haven't used this journal in many many months, but this is not a post about why that is. the fact is, i'm here now. and i'm not going to say i don't know why, even though it is past midnight, i just got home from a speech tournament in NYC, and i need to shower and sleep. but i do know why i am here ( Read more... )

so i thought that my senior portraits were to dark because i was wearing a suit... turns out the brightness settings on my computer were way down... oops :-)

the more i look at my senior pictures, the less i like them. my mom convinced me to do them in my speech suit. i wish i had worn something brighter. they're nice, i look great, but the suit is to dark.

poo.