I have this sense of peace.
This tranquility.
Maybe its just the heat mixed with Gomez.

But I just feel at peace.
And Its so nice to have, even if only for today.

Just what I needed tonight...

To put my mind aside and simply fight.
Dodgeball and Silly Christian Version of capture the flag did me so good.

Talking and walking and simply laughing till I cried.
Its just what I needed...

Stay Strong I keep telling myself. Don't loose heart.

Yet how can I do this on my own?
Simply is... I can't.

I just wish I had the time now to go to the mountains. To think.

One step at a time is all I got to take.
My heart fails me at times and I can't take it.
Those are the times most I need Him.
The times I learn the most from.

I went to the zoo today and all it reminded me of was you.

Instead of the monkeys this time it was the flamingos. ha.

What is time other than something to be used. Its like the blink of an eye, which is really freaking fast. So make the most of this time, growth is to be had.

Peace at last. Peace at last.

I went into the wilderness looking to think. God gave me peace. I feel that is just what I needed right now. All of these things I worry about. All are in his hands.

Life is a journey. But we have a dang good map.

Im a jerk.

Its that simple.

Damn this heart.
Why?

Another time of holidays, another time of pain.
It hurts to hear how good others have some things, but I just wish I could be happy they had it, rather than envious.

Im sick of these emotions. Im just lost and confused.

A young man named Chris asked me at church today if I was thankful for life. I answered yes. He said That he thanked God every day for life and that he could even live. That young lad is mentally handicapped. I have alot of lessons to learn still. Interesting how we overlook such simple things ( Read more... )

Is it wrong to not be thankful on thanksgiving? Because all it brings is jealousy for me. Ive got alot of work to do on my heart.

Why do I have to be so stupid and can't just accept what I have.
I guess I just wish I had a family.

Only at Christian High can you go fishing on a saturday with your teachers.

Unfortunately I can't say I caught a fish, but oh well sometimes you don't catch anything. I have partaken of powerbait and it was not good.

Oh the times. Why would anyone want to graduate early?