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i want this to be so perfect for him. he deserves it. it has to be just right. i wish this all works out.

day 2 - this sucks.

job interview today went pretty well i suppose. she said she'd love to have me work there. wow.. i'll actually have a job. how bizarre! haha

<3

my mom let me read this composition my sister wrote in english class the other day. my sister told my mom not to let me read it, but my mom did anyways today after school. my sister wrote i was her inspiration and how she always looks up to me. whoa. as i read i tried to hold back tears. it was seriously about the sweetest thing i've read in a ( Read more... )

homecoming is tomorrow night. i'm on homecoming court. my dad is escorting me on to the field. i don't expect to win. i am so excited, so excited. it seems like everything i've dreamt for my senior year. i have great grades, seriously. a 'b' in calculus ap. an 'a' in government/leadership ap, debate 4, english ap, and sports medicene. i have best ( Read more... )

eeekkkk it's cold.

i love it!

<3

what a crazy day. i woke up earlish to get ready for the day. i gave my mom her birthday present. later, i went over to matt's beause we were leaving for shanda's wedding in hickory. i had stooopit car problems and we had to take matt's car, then we lost the directions. so we drove to hickory and by the time we figured out where the wedding was, ( Read more... )

my body is sore all over. i have the love of my life. i need to do my calculus ap homework. my brother and sister-in-lkaw are in town. i had yummy chicken alfredo tonight for dinner. it's chilly outside which means autumn; my favorite. i will be running a cross country meet tomorrow afternoon at ashbrooke high school. i want sweet dreams tonight. i ( Read more... )

carrie carrie carrie.. what are we going to do with you ( Read more... )

i don't know. i feel sick. my stomach is turning and i feel the need to vomit. i don't like myself right now. i'm more confused than i can ever remember being.

maybe sleep will help. maybe prayers. i need something.

i am so glad i have the majority of my family living here in charlotte. i spent the day out on the lakie with them. i know that no matter what life throws at me, these people will remain. they are the few who know the true me; little carrie through senior carrie. i think people who arent close with their families are crackheads ( Read more... )