weird

i cant believe my life anymore. Im basically earased completly from los angeles. ive never felt so weak and so scared in my entire life. everything is to real and too painful and im out of existance. goodbye to love goodbye to feeling emotion everything, i've been forced to say goodbye.

so a battle has overcome the tiny little face that stares out of a small window. the freeway bangs in the background and the creature puts hands over her narrow eyes that allow sight. the mind is lowered into a tough pillow filled with rocks and nails. sweat dribbles down the sides of her neck and she chokes on every modern verdict. concrete is ( Read more... )

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it's so hard to be someplace but to dream of another
life.

i love this feeling. i love it i love u

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sometimes you learn the hard way. like through a reality check or an honest mistake. i've never actually felt so low about something after some time has past. i wonder if i'm learning to cope, or if i'm learning to fail. i want excitment and fun and i think part of that makes me fear letting go of things that stay stuck in my chest. i want to think ( Read more... )

it would be different if i never existed. it wouldn't hurt it wouldn't question. now if i simply wonder about your world, my chest gets heavy and the words turn to tears. i give thanks to things i've learned but i'm unsure if anything produces purpose. when built on new- things fall to easy categories, when difted to shame- these times place burden ( Read more... )

if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied.