just a fair warning...if you aren't capable of seeing things about me or talking to me...there's probably a really good reason ( Read more... )

you would never have expected for me to write an entry as i am about to now. you probably never would've imagined that my feelings for you would have been compared to the feelings i had for darin. and if that doesn't tell you at all how i felt about you...then i really don't know what else will ( Read more... )

i won't say i hate you...hate is too strong of a word.
but i really REALLY dislike you.

i hate how i have great opportunities.
yet i don't jump on them because i am afraid of what that'll mean to you.

i hate how i feel like im weak whenever i call.
yet ill call for even some of the most stupid reasons.

i hate how i want nothing to do with you.
yet i look ( Read more... )

by allowing me to take the time to be in your presence and see what you have been up to for the past few weeks, you allowed me to begin to let go. i see that you're busy with your life...too busy for ones that you once said you loved. but in my eyes...true love is never ending; therefore, what you had for me was not love. admiration? maybe. ( Read more... )

you don't have to say it
she said lets say goodbye for one last time
leave it all behind
i could feel it in your whisper
i could see it in your eyes
you found someplace else
or something better
to waste away the time

now im watching you just throw it all away
two lives have lost but still you have nothing  to say

im just a memory of what could be
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i realized after my last entry that the way i was feeling was no way to live at all. so i have been changing my perspectives and getting back to the basics....God. i need to look at the bigger picture of why He has put me here and what His purpose for me and my life is ( Read more... )

"Bring It On Home ( Read more... )

so often this journal was used to express how i felt about a certain boy. and now looking back, i am seeing that it was just a waste of time. i was about to sit here and write about the latest boy that i have been heart broken over but i have seen something. its a cycle. and you know what, i get through it everytime. i thought i would never ( Read more... )

what do you do when everything you've tried your hardest to forget about for six months comes rushing back to you in a second; the very second that you make eye contact with him for the first time in six months. do you laugh and smile and thank God for being so blessed to have been able to spend time with such a great guy like him? or do you get ( Read more... )

this is going to be a complete random post, so whoever reads it...i apologize now ( Read more... )