school once again has started and i'm already in a rut. ok, not really; life is currently surprisingly beautiful. i am offically moving to brooklyn in august. tenative date is still to be determined. i will be living with my oldest sister, annie. i will be attending film school. i am finally doing my dream and i am not stuck in a place that doesn't ( Read more... )

i feel like i am a bad person. one of my best friends is moving on friday and all i can think about is how it's going to be when i move in august. that's it. not about stin moving in a day. me all i can think about is how much i am going to hurt. what the fuck is the matter with me. i need miratty hardcore to the tenth degree and just the miratty ( Read more... )

 there are many things in my life that i have been adjusting and realizing lately. not only am i maturing in many areas, i am preventing that from happening in areas that are the dearest to me. i value my childhood and how i grew up and love being able to still live life though those, but i am coming to terms with the fact that i need to be ok to ( Read more... )

i accomplished three things on my list of things to do before i die... all in one night!!! i love life!

live had seemed to be finally turning around. and it was... slightly. i auditioned tuesday for next semester's shows. i got a callback and waited three hours to be on stage for 2 minutes... the pain of a theatre child. i didnt get the part.

now when i tell the guy to "break a leg" i mean it... i'm going to hell.

miranda and jayne are coming up ( Read more... )

i wsa in 7-11 just now and i saw man in a wheelchair get caught in the rug... it was depressing. seeing someone so helpless. i never want to be that helpless... ever.

when i'm old i want to be bale to say when i want to die  

alas i am back on here, it has been ages. i am making it through life but as each day brings the sun on my face, i find it harder and harder to get up for classes. because of this my attendance has suffered. i dont like it, i need to suceed this year, i have to.

i got waitlisted for the acting program. tracy said it was my best audition she has ever ( Read more... )

me: but seriosuly
i want matt holiday

Tyler: stop it

me: hehe

Tyler: I don't want to hear that about someone I like watching play my favorite sport

    it was 9:45AM and jordan lies motionless; his mind racing and churning with an unease that has kept him hovering over the cold porcelin bowl for the past three hours. the lonliness that he feels was unsurmountable. he was alone; left to his own vices. his shallow breath felt warm and clammy as it touched his forearm which cradled his gagging ( Read more... )

the smoke curls in front of the plasma screen; its gray swirling hues colliding, "It makes the day seem less predicable," Jordan thought. he was a 22 year old hermit who had spent the last three years in his room playing final fantasy and learning anatomy from the lyrics of lil' kim and busta telling him how to lick, drop and kick it right where it ( Read more... )