i wish it would rain for forever. and that i knew how to build an ark so when it flooded i could sail away. i think i would bring my mom's camera, my boxing gloves, the stuffed animal i sleep with sometimes, all of my cds, and my laptop. and all of my clothes. i would sail to my house to pickup my family and my dog, who would be waiting on the roof ( Read more... )

im becoming more and more sullen each day.

a haiku.

i'm going to leave.
i'm going to leave early.
don't sleep in my bed.

okay. im back to my carrots, water, and cigarettes diet.

a haiku.

she has her eyes closed.
she doesnt like cigarettes.
she just ran away.

oh, cruel world. what am i to do. on one hand, i've almost forgotten you. on the other, i feel like i shouldn't forget ( Read more... )

I think ultimately I'll be happier this way. I'm kind of on middle grounds right now, but at least I'm not upset all of the time anymore.

i do alot for alot of people, but when its time to ask for something back every once in a while, its like a huge burden, or i feel like they're thinking "how dare you ask of me anything". i think i need to stop giving so much, but its hard because its apart of me to want to give to people. i dont know how to solve this. hmm ( Read more... )

i think that if i ever ran away i would be okay. not in the best shape, probably, but okay. some people would definately not be okay because they think if they just run away they can do whatever they want and everything will be fine. i think i would run away just so i could be away. i wouldnt change anything in my life accept for where i was living ( Read more... )

its weird, how sometimes the last thing you ever expected from yourself can make you feel better.

i had the weirdest dream last night about something i never wanted to think about again. i dont know why i had it :(

i have 3 days off. i have alot to do!

i like rice. it is really good. i like pretty much everything made out of rice. even rice candy. thats my favorite. though its not really rice. its orange chewy candy wrapped in rice paper you are supposed to eat. its the best candy ever. it even comes with a free tattoo. in fact im gonna go get some right now ( Read more... )