sometimes i wonder when ill let things go. i guess when im done with them. but i realize everyone holds on to things for awhile. once you deal with something then you can finally let go. so thank you for letting me deal with it.

goodness. my brain hurts. or maybe not. im just totally bored with revising. it seems like it will never end. but it must be done by tomorrow at 3. i hope i can make it. then this weekend will be study math until my brain hurts again and maybe. hopefully. pass calculus. otherwise its kcc for me. or something ( Read more... )

revising everything i have written for a semester is tough. i dont think ill ever be done. guh.

todays bens birthday. i wish i could be there.

new family guy was good.
american dad not so sure.
i think its time to make food.
without work im a huge bum.
i still haven't gotten my money. i dont understand why its so difficult.

i would enjoy this no working on weekends thing much more if ben was around. then i could hang out with him and not have to leave him at my apartment while i go off to work. unfortunatly he is working all day today and tomorrow. and then i go out at night. so i may never talk to him again....or not till monday.
i cant wait to go home.

of course.
when im trying to study downstairs they decide to play their annoying music super loud. i hate this. i can hardly understand calculus in complete silence, but there is no way i can figure it out now. ugh.

my cutie sent me roses. so awesome. i've never had flowers delivered. they are so pretty. i feel special.

so i just found out i did this daily journal teen thing with ben's ex girlfriend. its wierd to think about it. we talked about fake teeth. she seemed nice.

this weekend was crazy. last night i rode around in my new car with monique. saw the amazying moon and the huge lake. played trivia and got in a fight. im horrible. i miss him so much. and its so hard being this far away from him. ugh.
i wish i wasnt crazy
tonight is my last night at work. last night. last night.
im excited
bye

i got a new car. its super cute. i didnt go to sleep till 330am and woke up at 7am. but my dad took me out to breakfast and gave me my car and we searched for a place to live. then i had to work. and im still there. till 930. if i make it.