takes the blueline out of the way to save $2.

my it has been awhile, journal.

It's not crazy anymore, every busride's such a bore
I miss that shiny downtown whore that I was before

Yesterday was the first day in... I don't even know how many months that I went a whole day without smoking. Because I was with my parents and I actually was happy for once. Sober. So soberly happy that I fell asleep early and had possibly the best sleep ever. I missed feeling loved, really loved.

Goals to be Completed in Next 5 Years:
- meet real grandparents
- move to CA

That is all.

So I started writing poems again. Here's my rusty go at it ( Read more... )

I walked home drunk last night and passed out in my bed with my jacket on.

I can't decipher the difference between my dreams and the journey home.

Wow it's been awhile ( Read more... )

SHIT TO GET DONE IN 2010:

- Work on website.
- Make mad bank.
- Go on a fuckin vacation.
- Figure out off campus study.
- Paint, paint, paint.
- Show in a gallery.
- Lose weight.
- Get new ID (now and when 21).
- Lose weight.
- Earn my family's love.
- Learn to cook.
- Be more assertive.
- Get smart.
- Don't die.

Money money money.

Why does my brain go one way but my heart insists on going another?
I wish there was a way to sync the two.