I miss her like crazy, I'm beginning to lose it. I hate when this happens to me, it makes me clam up and want to shut out from the world. The past few days have been fairly action-packed. I've already begun the reckless summer activities that may hospitalize me, nothing short of jumping off of second-floor windows and traveling on skateboards at ( Read more... )

Since I've had time off from work, I had decided that I would devote this week to bulking up by eating more protein and lifting heavier weights. Sadly, to my best efforts, I've actually lost 4 lbs. How does this happen? My upper body appears bigger in size, but the scale says I've lost weight. My max weight lifted has increased 10 lbs, so now I can ( Read more... )

My time off from work is a sanctuary.

Feeling better. Not fired. Things are looking up, but I still don't want to think about the future.

I woke up, completely empty, my heart standing still, my pulse racing, my brows sweating. I'm sick of treading through bullshit, my life is full of bullshit! Everyday, I'm waiting for that click in my head, when I've reached the peak of my intoxication; when everything ceases to matter, even my own well-being doesn't matter. I'm always adapting the ( Read more... )

It's been difficult to gather my thoughts, but I guess it always requires much effort. So, let's start from the beginning. I'm done with school, at least for right now. I may be taking summer school pretty soon, and with the way things are going with my new job, I may be looking for another job soon. I always do what I'm told, I don't complain, but ( Read more... )

No time at all, life's moving so quickly, I just want to relax.

Fuck it.

I really just want shit to get better...
Somebody give me some hope, send me some love.

I have come to realize the cause of my impotence, I plan on fixing it.

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