My industrial.


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it's all in your head.
i'll keep telling myself that.

things have been kinda okay this week. blake and i came to an understanding which is what we've been needing to do, so things just seem a lot simpler now. it's hard to describe but im glad things with us are where they're at. i've been a little upset about something though. im really afraid but i should probably focus on better things. i think i ( Read more... )

i finally went to animania after forever but it wasn't worth it at all. blake and i just kinda left after 30 min and got a jones and pizza. we were going to go to his house afterwards to watch movies but we were both too tired so he drove me home. hm, yeah idk, lately i've had this weird feeling in my stomach. i think i think too much sometimes. ( Read more... )

i feel a pit in my stomach that i wish would go away. i hate to doubt but it's just how i feel sometimes. maybe because i don't feel good enough, but then again i never do. you deserve all of the things that i just can't give. i misleaded you and hurt you too many times. i've said sorry for it too many times...i wish that i could start it all over ( Read more... )

today was pretty good i'd say. i was actually "social" in lunch today for once. i don't really talk much of the time because most of the conversations around me have stupid subjects and i don't like everyone at my table except for alyshia and tyler. but today wasn't like usual i guess, idk. i have a project to do, grr. it was due today but i forgot ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i've updated this thing. then again im not on the computer that much anymore, i've been finding better things to do i guess, idk. well, it's been a year and few weeks that blake and i have been going out. there have been ups and downs but that's normal. lately i've been missing the way things were in the beginning. i ( Read more... )

Gah...my mom set me up an appointment for therapy behind my back today. I really don't need it nor do I want it. Theres nothing I really need to talk about that I can't handle on my own, and I really dislike the idea of opening up to someone I don't know. So as you'd expect, my appointment didn't blow over so well and I don't plan on going back ( Read more... )

Yeah, so I changed my layout. Blake made the background <3 Things with us have been up and down. I feel kinda insane and unstable at the moment. Im not used to that. My feelings have been getting to me a lot lately and I hate it. Im stressed out beyond belief and I think I just might shatter into a million pieces if I don't get away from this place ( Read more... )

So I noticed that high school really does turn people into fakes.