48 years...

I've found my strength and my resolve.

It's over.

I can be happy now, I can be at peace.

I wonder where you are... I wonder if you think about me...

Once upon a time, in your wildest dreams...

Lately, I've felt that my presence, and even dare I say existence is highly unnecessary to my world as a whole. And for some odd reason when I look at certain dates I realize there was more reality in my past then there seems to be now.

I wonder what Juka and the kittens are doing right now...

Finally home... and yet... it is still silent.

Camui... doko?

Camui...

doko...?

I am at the point in the tour where it just starts to make you tired after a while. That middle place where the new of it has worn off, but not quite to the second wind. I still have fun, but I don't feel as energetic on stage as I did a few weeks ago.

I'm all packed... flight is in a few hours...

Sayonara...

I had hoped I'd get to see you more on your birthday, but I guess it wasn't to be. Happy Birthday anyway My Prince.

Last night I felt what Gakuto and Camui have known for so long. A protective, possessive love that he has for all of us in his family.

Camui, you are my prince. My knight in shinning armor. I love you with every fiber of my being. I miss you and hope to see you soon. Last night however, I found my two gaurdian angels. Hontou arigatou to you