us and them

[chadfu]

my parents kicked me out of the house last night.

i called at ten to tell them i wouldn't be home on time because alison's car wouldn't start. they were fuming. i told them we'd called someone to come look at it. halfway through the call, the engine roared to life (we must have turned the key forty or fifty times) and i told my dad i'd be home

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[kingofamerica]

draaaaaag! I mailed you something yesterday so hopefully you'll get it

[chadfu]

ooh, what is it?

[anonymous]

hey, thanks sucks man. i'm sorry. parents are like the last fallback you have and you don't want to blow it with them. i guess for other reasons too. but it sounds like they are pretty unreasonable. i don't see how you can grow while dealing with that. i feel like maybe you should be paying penance or whatever but that is just plain abuse.

i don't know what you should do, though.

well, take care.
-nick

[chadfu]

i don't see how you can grow while dealing with that.

i think it's probably the nietzsche thing. between the isolation, the absurdities of my job and the iron fist at home, it's been an extended exercise in anger management. and i guess in sucking up the depression. stiff upper lip and all that. wow, i just spell-checked nietzsche on google, and it's really spelled like that.

[anonymous]

That sounds like your parents as I remember them, no offense. This whole thing sucks. - Cory

[chadfu]

it's a little different now (see next post)

hey man, i like your blog. haven't gotten through all the posts yet, but it's looking good. and funny, of course.

[anonymous]

i thought about stanford in the summer, barbecues on hawthorne, weddings in georgia. i thought about the park blocks in the morning sun. i mouthed the word 'home'.

i like the way you write, chad. even if its a bit formulated and generic.

with regards to what nick wrote about your parents being the last chance, i think he's right. and with that, i think you should take extra precaution to make sure you're in their good graces (however unreasonable that may seem).

-andy

[chadfu]

even if its a bit formulated and generic.

i wouldn't mind hearing more about what you mean. and i wouldn't be offended at all.

i agree, extra precaution. it gets easy to step out of line sometimes, though, when the line is so narrow.

[anonymous]

i wasn't trying to be offensive at all, quite the opposite. the tone of the last couple sentances seemed really familiar (like the cadence of a good book), so much that you could almost hear how anyone would try to read it aloud. and because it sounds so familiar, i would assume that style of writing fits in some kind of generic writing formula. on the flipside though, everybody likes writing that makes you feel comfortable/familiar. but please don't ask to see my writing credentials, i have none.

[suessigkeiten]

i hate that you and your parents always give me totally different stories.

your dad called me saturday afternoon to tell me that you were no longer living with them. he said that you were drunk and not wanting to take your medication and that you left. he made it sound like you were drunk and crazy and left of your own volition.

i was so worried about you.

and i'm still worried, but less so, as it appears that you are coherent and not leaving by choice.

your parents make me so fucking mad sometimes.

(and did you try to call me this morning? i dragged myself out of bed to get to the phone, but it stopped ringing just as i picked it up.)

[chadfu]

i think after thirty years of living with my mom, my dad has become a compulsive liar. he also has a lot of pride and a large capacity for denial, so i don't think he always realizes when he's doing it. believe me, i've been converted to the 'medication is okay' team.

i didn't call you. i wanted to, but didn't.

[chadfu]

oh, and by 'medication is okay', i meant that my modest dose of lithium is okay. i still think our country is overdosed and that the pharmaceutical industry and the doctors they pay to jack you up on paxil or whatever are ridiculously out of line.

[chadfu]

oh, and sorry to have worried you:(