Today I got my wisdom teeth removed, my mouth wont stop gushing blood and I vomited my own blood through my nose, it was fairly unpleasant. Today is the one day anniversary of Oliver's death, I wish I could be there for Jan. I feel bad that I am always gone for the important things but next year I wont have to worry about that. I wish that I had ( Read more... )

So my parents are supposed to move to Spain next year and now my mom is all like I am not doing that I am going to move to WI (that's where her family is) and teach there because that is what I want to do with my life. It's just total bullshit because now Gavin wont see my dad for like two years, and like yeah okay do that if you want to but not if ( Read more... )

I am sick to death of Juno and the entire Juno craze and the fact that everywhere I look is Juno Juno Juno, and when my mom comes home and asks me if I have heard that song in Juno cause she would like to get it, even though apparently she didn't know that she has heard it before. Juno is on Oprah and it is everywhere. The movie was okay but it ( Read more... )

So I finished applying to USM and Buffalo. I still have to do some stuff for MECA but it's due March 1st so I'll be okay. I honestly probably wont end up going there unless they give me like a lot of money. I need to understand that I just don't have enough money to do that and get over it, whatev ( Read more... )

okay so here is how it goes, I am once again applying to college which is no fun at all. So I am applying to Buffalo and I am also applying to Mass Art MECA and USM because they have a good art program. My dad has looked at both Buffalo and USM and he says USM is okay but he really really likes Buffalo and thinks that it would be great for me. Of ( Read more... )

I feel like I can never escape the pains that the oyster river guidance department has inflicted on me. My final transripts got there, but oh so late. I don't even know if I can sign up for my classes. I kinda have this secret hope that I wont be able to and that then I can just leave my house now and live somewhere else for five months and save up ( Read more... )

Waaaaah!

Well Oyster River Highschool is at it again ( Read more... )

Today I went to my great grandfather's funeral. He was a very good man who was also very funny. I am so happy for him. Although he died, he had the best death anyone could ask for, and death is part of life. He was 92 and his wife died the year previous, he was not sick he simply just passed on in his sleep of old age and had no pain. It was ( Read more... )

So I really hope that if I do ever get enough money to go to art school that I don't turn into a pretentious piece of shit, cause oh my gosh it happens a lot. I really want to go, I feel like I am wasting my time here. I just want something to happen, I feel so stuck. I can't get a job here and I feel more dependant than I have in a very long time ( Read more... )