It's weird, I always wanted to get away from home, but on this holiday I want nothing more than to return. This is going to be my first Christmas alone. It's unfortunate because when I say alone, I mean I'm not going to see my family. Ryen is in Oregon.

I am actually going to be spending the rest of the evening and tomorrow alone in my room, ( Read more... )

It's really over this time.....I can't believe it....I'm not sure what it's going to be like without her. I have no social interaction, no way to make new friends, I don't go to school, I working minimal hours, she was all I really had that kept me going through out the day...Now I don't know what to do.....

FUCK

In relationships, I often find myself in doubt. I love Ry with all my heart, but in order for me to make the relationship work I need to make a few changes in my behavior. This is understandable. However, my problem is, that I need changes made for me as well. I don't know why but everything is my fault. I know this is not true, but the other ( Read more... )

Why does Murphy hate me?

Why does life aways have to be so hard and why does everything always have to be my fault? Why can't I ever be the victim in a fight?

I just wanted to go on the record and say that, everything is going great between me and Ryen. We are getting a long so much better this time around. We talk, and figure out our problems together. I feel like because of her, all the shit going on in life, isn't as bad as it could be. She gives me something to look forward to at the end of the day. ( Read more... )

I need to move out...again. My mother says she wants me out of the house by the end of the holidays, she says she wants me to launch gracefully. what she fails to understand is that there is no such thing as leaving the house gracefully when they want you out. She says i should go to live with my father, which I'm not going to do. I need a place to ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in for ever. I feellike im losing everything. My friends are gone. I just broke up with Katie. I'm unhappy with life. I feel so aloine even thoughi try to surround myself with people. I feel as though i'd be better off alone in a dark room. I managed to work out a deall with my family. I had to work out a deal just to live at home ( Read more... )