i wrote these the other night... i rememeber some of them but i had taken pain meds.. so i really don't remember writing alot of the parts of them., none of them have titles yet...damn... i need to write on meds more often ( Read more... )

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ok..im done...fuck relationships....fuck love...fuck every thing!!! I tried my fucking hardest to love somebody.. but its hard to love when you don't know what love is.... i have never know HOW to love... it was something i was never taught.. and honestly there are only 4 ppl i will honestly say that i love, and i DARE somebody to mess with them ( Read more... )

I have officially been told something that really hurts... i can and have put up with ALOT of shit im my life.. and i will prolly continue to do so... however.. there is ONE thing in my life that i have done damn near more than ANY other person or group of ppl taht i have met.. and that is Care. I have been told that i don't care.... !!!NEWSFLASH ( Read more... )

....The Hurting Words ( Read more... )

ok..here i sit at chelles house... shes tired so shes napping... even tho we got up like 3hrs ago.. when she gets board she sleeps. It sucks major hardcore ass.. i can't take her out tonight like i wanted.. her mom had a minor 'issue' with the car last night.. and its 'broke' she won't really say what tho.. all she says is that the wheel almost ( Read more... )

at times anyway.... i had the funnest time from sunday night... till wednesday morning.. I went out to Chelles house sunday night and spent the night.... i loved it.. i got to hold my baby all night.. literaly.. i don't think we moved all that much.. it was sooooo nice just to hold her again... i took her to the Dr the next day and then we went ( Read more... )

lost in a sea of emotions that fight to consume my heart.. and swollow my soul. Well tahts what it feels like anyway.... feels like i have embraced something hat is going to swollow me and never let me go... I found out today a very important person in my life may be suffering from a type of cancer... and i don't know what to do... i don't know ( Read more... )

ok... time for an update! As you all know... i have been nastily ill the past week..literaly.. well, i think im ALMOST COMPLETELY over it.. im still suffering a bit of the effects of not eating for 5 days, but tahts to be expected. My dehydration is almost gone and im back on my feet now.. i even went and had a LIGHT workout at the gym today.. as a ( Read more... )