I wanted to wait for some good news to post, but that isn’t going to happen, so I might as well update ( Read more... )

“You saved me. If not from this world, then from myself.” If I ever find someone, they might hear me say those exact words, or ones like them. Personally, I can’t think of a greater compliment than that. Hearing someone you care about telling you that, letting you know that you had that big of an impact on their life. Yet still, I wait ( Read more... )

It is rough to wake up in the morning, and know that regardless of how hard you work, how great a job you do at EVERYTHING, how much love you have to give out, the only people who care are two guys that happen to share a suite with you. It would be great if I were gay, but I’m not, so the depression worsens ( Read more... )

First off, I sent her the get out of my life letter. In it I called her boyfriend an alcoholic, called her impatient and selfish, and was generally pretty harsh. I figured she would never want to talk to me after that. Instead, she talked for 5 hours after she read it, and we are still talking. ::sigh:: I just don’t understand women, but you knew ( Read more... )

So things are still rough, I guess. Classes are hard, nights are long and lonely. I am sleeping a bit now, so that helps. I think something snapped in me though, and the dull ache in my chest has gone away. After I decided to give up drinking, most of the urge to do so has gone away too, so I think I can say I have taken a step back from the brink ( Read more... )

So I needed to do a whole lot of work, but instead I spent the day playing video games. Though I got everything done that I needed to get done, I can’t help but think that I should have done more. I can’t figure out the math, and couldn’t motivate to do much work for the Circuit Theory test that should have been today. Oh well ( Read more... )

Since we are on lockdown, and I have nothing else to do, lemme share some funny stories. Well, not funny, so much as sad ( Read more... )

Well, I am still breathing, though I doubt you could consider what I have been doing since my last update as “living ( Read more... )

I spent two days with my uncle in Ft. Lauderdale this weekend. I have barely spent any time with the guy, and it was pretty surreal to do so. While my dad lives modestly, saving his money, and buying only what he needs to be comfortable, my uncle spends his money like water. He owns a successful furniture company, so he has the money to burn. From ( Read more... )

So I’ve been working, in a nutshell, that’s it. That has been my life. I have been trying to keep focus on things, and not get bogged down by the seemingly impossible tasks put before me. The other day I couldn’t ( Read more... )